October blog challenge Day 7

7 lessons I have learned so far this year

1. My first lesson that I have learned is that you really can't trust anyone. That definitely includes family. I say this because I have had so many encounters where these people whom you have taken the time to open up to only use what you say against you. I don't know why they do so, maybe because they are bored, envious,...etc. whatever it may be. Point is, people are the real monsters and can turn on you in a blink of an eye.

2. My second lesson would have to be to not gossip, it just gets you into drama and trouble. With gossiping, it makes you look stupid and just a downright nosy person. It just makes you look bad and even makes you feel bad, I did it and I felt like a piece of shit. I ended up disrespecting good people who care about me. In the end, I learned that you need to treat others the way you'd like to be treated.

3. My third lesson is learning to save money because there will always be a time where you're going to need it to come and save the day. I, personally have been and am really bad at saving. When it comes to money I don't like when people tell me when and how to spend my money. But, it has helped me so far with saving money and I really like seeing money still in my pocket. I seriously have to thank my boyfriend for pushing me to save my money.

4. The fourth lesson I learned is to worry about myself, because when you get yourself tangled up in someone else's business it messes you up. When I was so worried about what the people who have done me wrong in the past were doing, it consumed so much of my time and effort that I could be spending on something else. I mean, I'm still learning to ignore everyone else's business but it's also hard when you live with other people. Once I start to worry about myself I start striving to better for myself and my life. I feel as if nothing can really tear me down. 

5. The fifth lesson I learned is that once you start living with someone and you spend everyday with them you start noticing the things you like and dislike about them. For instance, things that I didn't know about my boyfriend and his mother start showing. My boyfriend starts showing different habits and so does his mother. You get to learn more about people by observing their actions. Overall, everyone is human and we just have to learn to deal with one another or get along.

6. The sixth lesson I learned is that you shouldn't have super clean hair. I only say this because I use to wash my hair ALL THE TIME!! Guess what ended up happening? I got head lice, I learned that it's okay to wash your hair twice a week. I did all of the necessary remedies to get rid of it and now I'm fine. 

7. The seventh lesson I learned is that things that occur in our lives always happen for a reason. We may not know the reason but want to. A lot of events up until now have happened and most of them all have a good reason for happening. It taught me some really good life lessons and I grew from them. Everything that has happened to me make me a better person and it makes me so thankful for the life I have.

Thank you for stopping by and reading my posts!!!

See you all soon in my upcoming posts!!

My sister and cousin's graduation

Yesterday was my older sister and cousin's University graduation from the same school! But, they majored in different things. XD I'm so proud of them two but, I'm also proud of the class of 2014! They worked so hard to get to this point. It makes me so emotional for some odd reason. XD lol Anyways, I also had a family reunion because of the graduation. ^^ Graduation just brings people together, now does it? X3 

Also, there was something that was out of the ordinary to me. It was just different. In most if not all different majors, there was a family. They all had the same last name and they were some long names. Like, royalty or something. I was actually just amazed at how many of them graduated today. Every one of them I heard their name more than 15 times! Their family must be proud though, that they all had graduated and graduated together! :) 

My older sister graduated in Liberal arts (English major). My cousin graduated in Urban affairs (Public administration). 

Here are some pictures I took! :D

Red everywhere!!!! XD lol I love the color red though! 

Well, that's it for today's post! I hope you enjoyed it! Thanks for stopping by and reading! Have a great day! :)

Disappointment

Recently, I had received a message from my home school counselor and found out that I was withdrawn from it. I was horrified when I heard the news, then again, I honestly blame the school because they had changed everything around this year. Nothing was easy this year as it was the last. I am actually very disappointed in that, but I'm also very disappointed in myself. Why? You might ask. Well, because I wasn't able to push myself as much as I expected from myself. I feel as though I had let down myself and my whole family. Feeling like you've let yourself down is the worst because it's yourself who knows yourself better than anyone. 

What really frustrates me though, is that no one really wants to try and put themselves in my shoes to understand why I did what I did. They don't want to know how some things are difficult for me to process, and why it might have come to this. Everyone is expected so much from me so I feel really pressured and at most times misunderstood. I honestly am "the runt" or "the black sheep" out of the kids in my family. All of the kids that are older than me have graduated and are on their own, living their lives. The younger ones are even doing better than me. Then there's me, the one who doesn't know what to do, where I'm going in life, how I'm going to get places and it's just a giant mess. It makes me have so much anxiety just thinking about it. Sometimes I even think that I may be a dead beat or something like that or near it.

Then again, my optimism, faith and hope comes in to save me a little bit. I always know that there are ways to get through this and also that there are always going to be lessons to learn every day throughout our lives. I am going to learn to get pass this and see what this is going to teach me. This is probably one of those moments where I find someway to overcome this and become a better and stronger person. It's not all about blaming and being disappointed in the end. It's about falling and picking yourself up, brushing yourself off and carrying on forward. There's always going to be a light at the end of the tunnel and as long as you have your faith, hopes and dreams you can make it.

I'm going to get through my disappointment because as long as I know that he has a special path and plan for me, I should carry on with my head held up. I will learn from this obstacle and I will smile as I find the right path and make my way to my goals and dreams. Over all of my past mistakes and disappointments I have learned to be quite cheerful and optimistic and to have faith in things because life is sometimes too short to be down. I always try to please everyone around me because seeing them happy makes me happy. When it comes to making myself happy, it's being with others who are happy. I practically just repeated myself but, I think you will understand in the end. ^^ So, I guess the whole lesson for me here, is that disappointments can turn into your drive and optimism for success. 

Thank you for taking the time to read this post! 

I do hope this inspires you to carry on and have faith!

Keep following your dreams!

Fighting~~!!

Have a great day!

31 day blog challenge Day 16

Day 16 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 16: What is your biggest accomplishment?

Honestly, I can't say that I have made it to my biggest accomplishment yet. I believe that all of your small accomplishments will result in your biggest accomplishment. Therefore, I have not yet reached my biggest accomplishment. I am constantly working and thinking of ways to reach my goals and how I will make it to my accomplishments. Some will take a short period of time, others a much longer time. I know I will make it to my biggest accomplishment one of these days. Oh, I finally have thought of a big accomplishment! The biggest accomplishment a person or myself can have is living every day to its fullest! :)

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!! 

31 day blog challenge Day 9

Day 9 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 9: What's on your life list/bucket list?

Things on my bucket list:

1. Go travel the world with friends

2. Have pets

3. Have at least one or two kids

4. Get married

5. Become well known

6. Go on all of the roller coasters around the world

7. See B.A.P live in concert

8. Meet B.A.P

9. Go to a B.A.P fan signing

10. Meet and talk to Yoo YoungJae

11. Go shopping in Shibuya, Tokyo

12. Get a hug from YoungJae

13. Have a party at the Palms in the Playboy penthouse

14. Have my mother move back to the US 

15. Go to the Playboy mansion

16. Go to a house music festival

17. Meet my B.A.P family 

18. Lose the glasses and get contacts

19. Meet my favorite Gyaru models

20. Get a kiss under the mistletoe or on New Years

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!!

Growing up

Hello!!! Today I would like to just show you pictures of me throughout the years. I guess I can say that I've "changed" or "matured". I went through a lot of "phases" and a lot of crap. Then again, what human doesn't? I would like to say that a lot of my changes were for the best. 

The changes in my life had only made me stronger.

Please enjoy my selfies. 

(They will be going from oldest to most recent)

Another reason why I brought up me growing up is because my birthday is coming up. My goal is to become a better me, to be more responsible, and to become a young lady I was blessed to be. I also want to be truly happy in which I am almost there. I want to meet the people I have become quite close to and earn my own money. I want to be successful for myself and for my loved ones.

I want to be the best that I can be for myself and for those who love and care for me.

I will forever be....

FIGHTING!!!~~~

Have a great day!!!

~Kaeli YouJae~

No turning back/changing

Today I would like to talk about the feelings and thoughts that I've been having lately. Ever since I have decided to depart from a group I had created I had been feeling like an open wound. Fresh, open, and vulnerable. I have been over thinking, hurting myself with these thoughts, and noticing a change in myself and others as well. I feel that I am losing those who once meant a lot to me.

Right now, nothing, absolutely nothing makes sense to me.

Blessed with a curse by Bring me the Horizon

I am actually at the point right now where I want to begin to keep a distance. A distance from those who were close, those who caused or cause me pain and those who choose to forget me. I think that at this point, I just need time to myself. No more conversing about fantasies and no more making acquaintances with those who converse about fantasies. I am just so confused and thrown into a whirlwind.

I guess that me distancing myself from everyone will be a good thing. It gives me time to myself and more time for those people to find new things. I have noticed that over these past years, a lot of peoples' lives have become better without me in it. Sometimes, I think that I was just made to be alone majority of the time. I feel that I am a burden to those who have become close to me.

I also feel that once we get close to the fire we get burnt. After getting burnt, we never want to go near it again. Yet, that experience and feeling of getting burnt gets engraved in our minds. Although, there's nothing to change about what happened because it left a scar. Sooner or later it will heal and we will learn new things from that past experience.

What I'm trying to say is that I'm prepared to face these changes in my life. I am ready to move on, and ready to grow up. I am ready to forget all of this and become a better me. It may not be beneficial to those around me but, if it benefits me I'm fine with that. I am ready to face reality and find something new to chase after.

In life, there will always be ups and downs, there is absolutely no way to avoid it. You make mistakes but you learn from them. These challenges and changes in our lives can only make us that much stronger. I am still learning, but I am also willing to put up with mine and other consequences. I have also learned that now, I am practically an adult and I need to take full responsibility for whatever happens.

There will be no more blaming on others.

I am definitely feeling way better after babbling this. I feel like a "brand new" me! Yes, change feels good right now. It feels good to do things for myself once in a while. This is a big step for me, I do feel very mature at the moment. haha! I am a girl slowly turning into a young lady.

I will like to end this somehow, on a positive note. To those who caused me pain, thank you, you have made me that much stronger and mature. To those who became close to me, thank you for letting me be myself and learning to trust people. To those who have chosen to forget me, thank you for giving me memories. To those who want to cause me pain, I don't care what you do, life is life, it's gonna suck sometimes but, I won't let you get to me. 

We all have to learn to deal with whatever life throws at us.

POWER by B.A.P

Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed it!! I'm very sorry if this post does not make a lot of sense. I was just going with whatever my mind was telling me.I apologize for it not being to your liking. 

Good night world!!!

My gyaru diet

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It's summer time and we are all ready to wear our ever so cute swimsuits!!! Right? Well, I'm going to share with you my diet that may help you keep a fit body. This may or may not work for you, but it works for me. I am no nutritionist or anything of that sort. I am just a girl that wants to stay fit and wants to help others do the same. :)

I hope this helps you. :)

Let us begin!! Ikimashou!!~ :D

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Eating

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Mostly what I do is eat 50% of the plate size, sometimes I eat until I am 50% full. I eat small snacks in between each meal. Such as: Breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, so on and so forth. I am also the kind of person who skips breakfast and eats a small lunch, snack and dinner with a dessert. Another factor that helps me is my natural fast metabolism, so that method may not be best for some.

To let you all know, I eat anything and everything. It doesn't matter whether it's good or bad I eat it!!! Eat what you like, but always eat your vegetables, grains, protein,...etc. As long as you eat what makes you happy and in small portions you'll be alright. If your happy, that's all you need to continue dieting.

Also, a really big thing for me is drinking water A LOT of water. I rarely have any soft drinks, energy drinks, coffee, or juice. I might have tea from time to time. All of those drinks seem to fill me up more than the food could. That is mostly it for the drinks, stay healthy, water is mother nature's gift. (^____^)

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Exercise

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The types of things that I like to do to keep active: 

• Singing
• Para para
• Belly dancing
• dancing
• Jumping rope 
• Jumping up and down to music
• Swimming
• Walking
• Running

Staying active as we all know is good for us. Even just daily routines can be known as exercise. For example: doing the laundry, running up and down stairs, doing dishes, making your bed, cleaning your room...etc. It's important to keep your body moving and heart pumping. Just keep moving and staying active and you'll feel alive! 

Well, there you all go!! Those are my dieting secrets!! Please leave a comment if this worked for you, I would love to hear from you. I just really want to help people reach their goals. I want to help them feel happy and accomplished. 

The most important thing to remember gals is that you have to be happy and committed to your diet. It's okay to relax and take a break but not for too long. As long as you're happy with what you're doing that's all that should matter. Do this for YOU, do not do this for anyone else. YOU are beautiful in YOUR own unique ways.

I believe that everyone is beautiful in their own ways. I also learned and was taught that...

"You must love yourself before you can love anything else."

I hope that this will help you gals, I really do. I want to help others and help them see the beauty that they possess. Please leave a comment telling me if this has helped you. I would really appreciate it. :)

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Always stay beautiful inside and out gals!!~

Believe in yourself!~

AGEPOYO!!~ 

Takanori-chan

Today I will be giving you my little story about this little guy named Takanori. Takanori was a 5 month old long haired chihuahua when I got him. Just a sweet little baby, ever since I saw him I was already attached. He stole my heart, he was so cuddly and well behaved. He even woke me up with kisses, such a sweet and precious boy.

This story starts with me wanting a puppy so badly that I didn't care what others thought about it. I didn't even care what my guardians thought, knowing that they didn't want a dog in the house in the first place. I went on craigslist to find this precious baby and contacted the owner. I told her over and over that I was interested in her puppy. She agreed to let me see her puppies and take one of them home in the same day.

I was indeed, very very selfish at this point. I would stop at nothing to have this dog in my life. I would even risk getting my cousin in trouble and myself. When I got the chance to go out with my cousin, I got a call from the owner about the puppy. She wanted to know when I wanted to see the puppies, my cousin and I decided to go immediately. 

After seeing this little boy, I fell in love with him. I decided to take him home even knowing that it was the wrong thing to do. My cousin and I didn't want to leave the little guy in the car so, we took him into the movie theater with us. After the movies, we went to the pet store to get him a collar and leash. Also, his necessities and we were too scared to bring him home so we took him to the park.

It was night when we went to the park and it was kind of chilly. Takanori was getting cold so we decided to sit in the car. After the park, my cousin decided to drop me off, we were planning on how to sneak him into the house. We finally got everything figured out and I got him inside safely without being noticed. I was extremely happy to have brought home a puppy, but also worried that I would get caught.

I then immediately started taking pictures of this cutie and uploading them to instagram. My older sister had seen them and wanted to come over the next day or so to give me a gift. She also wanted to meet this sweet little baby, I was happy to let her. Once she came over, I told her that my guardians didn't know that I had a dog in the house. She then told me that the best thing to do was to tell them.

I knew what I did was wrong and I felt very guilty because of it. It was eating me up inside, even knowing that I promised my cousin I wouldn't say anything. I promised my cousin that I wouldn't say she had anything to do with it. I still felt that the best thing to do was to speak up, knowing that I would have to face my consequences. So, once my aunt came home, I decided to open up and tell her EVERYTHING.

Of course, me being a sensitive person, I cried. My aunt forgave me for showing humility, but she was very disappointed in me for taking such actions. That is very understandable though, so I understood right then that I would have to fix what I had started. My aunt started by asking and hearing both sides of the story. She heard both and became confused and angry, I didn't feel worthy of anything.

Since my relationship with my cousin began to fall apart, I had to ask my older sister to take Takanori back to his owner. Once my sister had come to retrieve him, I had to hear what her and her girlfriend thought about the situation. They were just confused and angry as my aunt was and that made me feel like sh*t, something even lower than dirt. I knew that I had this coming anyway, but it still hurt a great deal. Then again, I had to face my consequences for my actions.

I had no one else to blame but myself. That was the harsh truth and I knew it. This was one of the things that had taught me a lot. About making mistakes, responsibility, humility and even consequences. I even learned about how people take to certain situations. Most of all, I want to apologize to Takanori, he had already been in a house that had rejected him. 

He was sent back to the owner before I even came to get him. I only had him for a night and a day. Then, he was sent back to the owner again, what was I thinking? Making this poor little dog go back and forth and wondering who his real family is. I am so sorry Takanori for putting you through all of that. 

You made me happy, but knowing that I put you through that I feel like a terrible person. You didn't deserve that, I also didn't deserve you. I was too eager to have a puppy that I didn't think about the consequences. It tore my relationships apart and I had become untrustworthy even to my own family. So, I have learned so much just from getting a puppy, I now know to think twice before doing anything.

You may have thought that this story was going to be all soft and sweet. I apologize if it wasn't something that you were expecting. 

"Expect the unexpected..."

I just wanted to share with you the time that I had learned a lot from my mistakes. Also, knowing right from wrong, knowing when to stop. Knowing when you need to stop and think before you do anything.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. 

I apologize if this was not what you were expecting.

I also hope that you do not make the same mistakes I did.

I hope you enjoyed this. :)

Here are some more photos of Taka-chan.

Please enjoy! :)

I miss this baby boy so very much and I lost him because of my stupid actions. 

It was all my fault. 

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I will never ever make the same mistakes again.

I have learned the hard way.

"Learn from your mistakes..."

Have a wonderful and experimental day!!~ 

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