Crazy thing

Something crazy recently happened that I thought would never happen between my best friend/little sister and I. It came to the point where I began to believe that we had drifted apart and I didn't want to be her friend anymore. Then, as we kept on talking, we started seeing how great of a friendship we have. She also brought up all of the amazing memories we created together and how much she had opened up to me. She mentioned how many things she had done with me than with anyone else she knows, even those who she sees in person. It hit me, she really is a little sister to me and my best friend, why would I be crazy to throw that away? I felt so stupid at that point, and even make her cry like I had a few times in the past. I feel like a bad friend and a jerk for doing that to her. It's crazy how we forgive one another and still want to be crazy siblings together. ^^ I guess we are best friends!

Here's the crazy conclusion we came to, the thing that was really causing us distress, tears, and even the thought of ending our friendship was because of this man. Ruki of the GazettE, he literally came between us because we both liked him or even love or "loved" him. It was something that we both never wanted to happen to the both of us, but it did. Just over a guy? I know, it sounds stupid but, it does make sense to a certain extent. Well, since my best friend still loves him I had told her to admire and love him away from me and my sight. I don't like him because he came between my best friend and I and I never want to fight with her or make her feel sad ever again. Now, I know that I will always choose my friends over some guy because friendships are so much more important than fangirling over a celebrity. 

I guess I had learned something new!

We make mistakes and we learn from them, that way we don't repeat these mistakes in the future. 

We can only get stronger from these things that happen to us.

Well, this was a very short post today, but I just wanted to share with you my discovery and hope it helps you if you are or have been through this. It's always nice to be able to relate to others, because in reality no one wants to be the only one. 

Have a great night!

31 day blog challenge Day 24

Day 24 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 24: Your most embarrassing moment

I have actually had multiple embarrassing moments but, it was of the same kind of thing. I keep on hearing someone say my name or a name that sounds similar to mine and I answer. I also see someone waving at someone near me or behind me and I wave back at the stranger. Those are the most embarrassing moments that I have had happen. I bet a lot of you can relate to this sort of thing. ^^

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!!

31 day blog challenge Day 8

Day 8 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 8: Biggest pet peeve

My biggest pet peeve would have to be copy cats. I honestly HATE it so much. People in the past have told me to take it as a form of a compliment. No. I will not take it as a compliment, you have your own brain that can make ideas...USE IT! I also hate it when people copy you and it's so obvious. Like, really? Can you not give any credit? Can you not change it up to make it your own? I mean, you can even say that you were inspired by that person to do so. Well, that is one of my biggest and top pet peeves.

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around for the rest!!

Have an amazing day!!

My missing piece

Recently, I have been feeling as if I have found my missing puzzle piece. I have been thinking about how much this person has in common with me. It's actually quite scary how much we have in common, whether it be actions or intellect. It is also all natural for the both of us to do what we do. To me, he is so perfect, there is nothing that I don't like about him, I love everything about him.

Although, I haven't met him yet, I feel as though I have known him for a long time. I feel as if I have met him before or something along those lines. Every time I see him I just have to smile, he makes me so happy. He may make me happy at times but, he also brings tears to my eyes. I'm afraid that someone is going to take him away.

I want to be his, I want to be his everything. I had a sudden attraction to him and it came from absolutely nowhere. I never thought I would be this attracted to someone or have these feelings towards someone. It just took one look and for me to say, "Hey, that guy is quite attractive." Then, all of these feelings came from there and they have grown stronger ever since.

He is literally the other side to me, the other half, and my missing piece. Just watching him from afar and seeing all of the little things he does, I fall in love repeatedly. I even find the odd things he does to be attractive, meaning: things that you usually wouldn't find cute. I don't know if this is creepy or not, but, I love watching him eat. Like I had said earlier, I love everything about him, even the small things.

I honestly would do anything for him, he makes me feel so encouraged and supported. Lately, I have been pushing myself to do very well in school for him. I have been pushing myself to the point where my brain feels like it's going to explode. I always tell myself though that this is for him. He makes me feel good about myself, and he makes me feel that whatever I put my mind to I can do it.

He inspires me each and everyday. Seeing him do his best all the time, makes me want to do the same. There are just countless and admirable things about him that I just can't describe. I would like to say that he has made me a better person. He has also taught me to look at the world at a different perspective. 

I learn something new from him almost every day. He makes me look forward to each day, whether it be bad or good. He just makes me feel so alive, so alive that I'm just happy to be living and breathing each and every day. Knowing that I can see his smiling face every day makes my life worth it. He gives me that extra push to keep on moving forward.

Whenever I think of him or look at him I get those butterflies and my heart beats a little faster. I can't help the way I feel about him, it's quite hard to tell if this is an "infatuation" or "love". If I were with him, I wouldn't mind being away from him for a little bit, everyone needs their space. Just knowing that he is alive and happy, that's all that I need. I feel that he is pure perfection to me, maybe a prince charming. ^^

I can't wait until the day I get to finally meet him. That would be the day that I get to find out if it was meant to be or not. I am totally prepared for what may come of the answer. Only time will tell, I just believe that I have to have faith and hope that this may work. No one knows what will happen, I just have to keep my head up and wait for that day. 

I just know that this guy makes me feel like no other could. He is everything that I ever imagined in a guy, he is just too perfect to me. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. Every little thing reminds me or makes me think of him. I believe in fate, I just hope that this is right. 

I don't want anyone else but him, I know that sounds so cliche but that's how I feel. He has become a part of me, I can't go a day without thinking of him. Most of the time my mind just wanders off to him anyways. These are all natural feelings and I just can't describe fully of how he makes me feel. I can't describe fully of how I feel about him. 

He is just my missing piece, he is special, and he has stolen my heart and is running away with it. I just wish he knew that he meant this much to me. Everyday that goes by, my feelings grow stronger and stronger. Every time I see him, my heart beats faster and faster. I just want him to know that he is always on my mind and in my heart.

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chuu!!~~~ <3

Okay, that's all for my post today!!

Hope you enjoyed it!!

Have a lovely day!!

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~*Kaeli YouJae*~

I'll wait for him

Are you willing to wait for someone that you have strong feelings for?

I have really strong feelings towards this guy, ever since I saw him I knew that I had feelings for him. I thought it was just a tiny little crush but, it turned out to be more than that. Although, he had told me that he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. He really is an honest and amazing person, I had never found that in any guy I had previously met and dated. He's different, and he gives me these feelings that I can never explain.

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Recently, I had met him for the second time at a friend's surprise birthday party. I really tried to keep my distance from him because there were so many other people around. I also didn't want to come off as clingy. I couldn't help my feelings towards him though. My feelings for him are just so strong, being away from him even for a few minutes kills me. 

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I had to sooner or later ask him for an embrace. Once we did, without thinking before my actions, I told him that I missed him. Even knowing that it was way too soon and he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. His response to the I miss you was an "Uh huh." I felt so damn stupid and humiliated. 

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The embrace of course, lasted a while. I couldn't help myself. It's so crazy how someone who was  once a complete stranger can mean so much to you after meeting them. While we were walking to the birthday girl's house to go swimming, I was holding hands with him. His grip was loose and we were uncomfortably silent. He had told me he wanted to talk to me about something.

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I knew exactly what he was going to say to me, but I kept on holding on to him. Of course, he tells me that he wasn't ready for a relationship and that nothing was going to make him change his mind. I was a little hurt but, who wouldn't be? I understood him though, and the fact that he told me face-to-face and being nothing but honest, I had to respect his decision. He then, let go of my hand and I just kept a smile to show him that I wasn't hurt.

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I like/love this guy so much that I will respect his decisions. I will take my time and wait until he's ready. Even though, there's this thing sticking in the back of my mind. "What if I'm waiting for absolutely nothing?" It makes me sad to know that may be the truth. "What if I'm wasting my time waiting for him but, he decides to move on?" 

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Those things somehow seem to subside after I remind myself of what my best friend/brother had told me about his best friend (which is the guy I like). He had said that they are not the type of guys to mess around with girl's feelings. They are the type of guys who would go out of their way to make people they care about happy. They aren't the type of guys who would want to treat a girl badly. He even told me that his best friend is the kind of person who just needs time.

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I can completely understand that, once in a while people just need time to do things that benefit them. Also, the guy I like even came forward and told me that all of those sweet and intimate things we did together was done so that I wouldn't be disappointed. So, was it done just to satisfy me? Was all of those things just a lie? Or did he really have an interest for me or what? 

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I'm not upset that it came to that. I just really want to know if his feelings were really there or if it was just an act to make me happy. I really hope that it wasn't just an act. I just really wish he knew how I felt about everything. How I felt when I was around him, how I felt when he held my hand, and how I felt when he kissed me. I just wish he knew that I may be clingy but, it's because I like to show affection. 

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He really gives me these feelings that I have never had before about anyone. I had never been sitting alone and had pictures of him flashing through my mind. I had never looked at a picture of a person and automatically smiled and giggled. When I see him my heart races and I can't help but smile. I honestly wish that he was mine.

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In my eyes, he is pure perfection. He is everything that I'm missing. He's my missing puzzle piece. I feel that he's my other side or my other pair. He completes me and I'm happy that he was brought into my life.

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Therefore, I will give him time, as long as he needs. I will wait for him because I really truly do not want anyone else. He means that much to me, I had never felt this way about anyone. I really wonder if he has ever thought of me once or had some feelings towards me. He is that special to me that I had chosen him over my sleep and even my thoughts at times.

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Wait for you by Elliot Yamin

I hope you enjoyed this lengthy post. 

Have a great and lively day!!

Love

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I would like to talk about my feelings about Love today. Personally, I am okay with being single, I enjoy being able to do things by myself. I have been single for quite a while now, I don't feel the need to be with anyone. I think it's fun being single because you have a lot of time to yourself. You also have a lot of time to hang out with your friends. :)

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Although, recently I have been slowly getting back into Love again. Thing that's holding me back though is myself. I have Fear, a lot of you can probably relate to this. I am in fear of Rejection and not being good enough. I am also in fear or nervous, that when I start talking to them I may just sound down right Stupid. 

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I want to start off as friends with any guy that I am attracted to. Another thing, I think a lot of us can relate to, is talking to that person that you want to get to know. Like I said, we are in fear of sounding dumb and being rejected. We are also nervous to talk to that person that we like or have a crush on. I know that I am definitely feeling fear and being nervous.

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I guess, at this point I think I need to sit down and figure out my emotions. I need to gain confidence and courage to speak up. I was always told to try something, and if I didn't, I wouldn't know what could have happened. So, I'm thinking, maybe I should just give it a try. It may or may not work, but it's worth a try. 

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Anyways, that was just a little rant that I wanted to get off of my chest. It has been on my mind for a while now and thought a lot of you could relate to it. Hope you all enjoyed it and maybe you can give me some feedback on what you think I should do. I am very scared of what could happen yet, I am so ready to give this thing a try. Have a wonderful day!!

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Dishonesty

Today I would like to talk about a very common topic.

Dishonesty

A lot has happened to me in the past and even now that has dealt with this. I mean, I can't say I haven't lied during my life time. In fact, one too many times I had been dishonest. One thing is always true about dishonesty, it does nothing but get you into trouble. I understand that it's only human of us to do so. 

For example, we could lie to get out of a situation or maybe to help a situation. What I have learned though, is that the lie can help only during that time. Then, the lies can keep on building up from that small one you had created. Soon, it will begin to consume you and you start to bury yourself alive in your lies. Sometimes, you even begin to believe your own lies and you than lose sight of yourself.

I personally, chose not to let it get that far. I'll admit it though, I was so close to doing so. It got to the point when I would feel guilty after lying. It would eat me up inside, and it made me feel like a "fake" person. Due to my constant dishonesty, I had lost a lot of friends and even my family members trust.

That is when I had chosen to change my ways. I didn't want to lose sight of myself or others anymore. I may not have many friends, but I know that I am my true self and they accept that. Now, I feel more confident in myself and I feel like a giant weight has lifted from my shoulders. One thing that really bothers me though, are dishonest people who strongly believe in their lies.

How I see these types of people: They feed off of their lies, they love the feeling of being in a fantasy world, and most of all, they love living a lie. They can't truly be themselves because no lie is ever true. It may sound beautiful whatever it is they're saying, but there will always be something hanging behind it. Therefore, I think dishonest people make good friends with other dishonest people. That way, they can feed off of one another's lies. 

I just can't stand dishonest people.

A Beautiful lie by 30 seconds to Mars

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This has been bothering me for a while now and I felt that I had to get this off of my chest. This post was quite long, but it wasn't hard for me to think of what to say. I hope you enjoyed reading this and maybe you can relate to it. Thank you for reading my endless rambling. 

Have a great day!~ :)