Song of the month

This month's song is...

"The heart wants what it wants" by Selena Gomez

Music video: 

http://youtu.be/ij_0p_6qTss

The reason why I chose this song for this month is because I can totally relate to the lyrics. I can even relate to Selena. This song really reached me deep inside and made me understand my own feelings. The lyrics are beautiful and so is Selena's voice. This song just touches my heart. I love it. :)

The lyrics: 

You got me sippin' on something

I can't compare to nothing

I've ever known, I'm hoping

That after this fever I'll survive

I know I'm acting a bit crazy

Strung out, a little bit hazy

Hand over heart, I'm praying

That I'm gonna make it out alive

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants

You got me scattered in pieces

Shining like stars and screaming

Lighting me up like Venus

But then you disappear and make me wait

And every second's like torture

Hell over trip, no more so

Finding a way to let go

Baby, baby, no I can't escape

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants [3x]

This is a modern fairytale

No happy endings

No wind in our sails

But I can't imagine a life without

Breathless moments

Breaking me down, down, down, down

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants [3x]

The heart wants what it wants, baby

It wants what it wants, baby

It wants what it wants [2x]

Credit to: AZLyrics.com

There you go! That's the song of the month! I hope you take a listen to it if you haven't already. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do! I hope you all have a great day or night everyone! :)

My missing piece

Recently, I have been feeling as if I have found my missing puzzle piece. I have been thinking about how much this person has in common with me. It's actually quite scary how much we have in common, whether it be actions or intellect. It is also all natural for the both of us to do what we do. To me, he is so perfect, there is nothing that I don't like about him, I love everything about him.

Although, I haven't met him yet, I feel as though I have known him for a long time. I feel as if I have met him before or something along those lines. Every time I see him I just have to smile, he makes me so happy. He may make me happy at times but, he also brings tears to my eyes. I'm afraid that someone is going to take him away.

I want to be his, I want to be his everything. I had a sudden attraction to him and it came from absolutely nowhere. I never thought I would be this attracted to someone or have these feelings towards someone. It just took one look and for me to say, "Hey, that guy is quite attractive." Then, all of these feelings came from there and they have grown stronger ever since.

He is literally the other side to me, the other half, and my missing piece. Just watching him from afar and seeing all of the little things he does, I fall in love repeatedly. I even find the odd things he does to be attractive, meaning: things that you usually wouldn't find cute. I don't know if this is creepy or not, but, I love watching him eat. Like I had said earlier, I love everything about him, even the small things.

I honestly would do anything for him, he makes me feel so encouraged and supported. Lately, I have been pushing myself to do very well in school for him. I have been pushing myself to the point where my brain feels like it's going to explode. I always tell myself though that this is for him. He makes me feel good about myself, and he makes me feel that whatever I put my mind to I can do it.

He inspires me each and everyday. Seeing him do his best all the time, makes me want to do the same. There are just countless and admirable things about him that I just can't describe. I would like to say that he has made me a better person. He has also taught me to look at the world at a different perspective. 

I learn something new from him almost every day. He makes me look forward to each day, whether it be bad or good. He just makes me feel so alive, so alive that I'm just happy to be living and breathing each and every day. Knowing that I can see his smiling face every day makes my life worth it. He gives me that extra push to keep on moving forward.

Whenever I think of him or look at him I get those butterflies and my heart beats a little faster. I can't help the way I feel about him, it's quite hard to tell if this is an "infatuation" or "love". If I were with him, I wouldn't mind being away from him for a little bit, everyone needs their space. Just knowing that he is alive and happy, that's all that I need. I feel that he is pure perfection to me, maybe a prince charming. ^^

I can't wait until the day I get to finally meet him. That would be the day that I get to find out if it was meant to be or not. I am totally prepared for what may come of the answer. Only time will tell, I just believe that I have to have faith and hope that this may work. No one knows what will happen, I just have to keep my head up and wait for that day. 

I just know that this guy makes me feel like no other could. He is everything that I ever imagined in a guy, he is just too perfect to me. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. Every little thing reminds me or makes me think of him. I believe in fate, I just hope that this is right. 

I don't want anyone else but him, I know that sounds so cliche but that's how I feel. He has become a part of me, I can't go a day without thinking of him. Most of the time my mind just wanders off to him anyways. These are all natural feelings and I just can't describe fully of how he makes me feel. I can't describe fully of how I feel about him. 

He is just my missing piece, he is special, and he has stolen my heart and is running away with it. I just wish he knew that he meant this much to me. Everyday that goes by, my feelings grow stronger and stronger. Every time I see him, my heart beats faster and faster. I just want him to know that he is always on my mind and in my heart.

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chuu!!~~~ <3

Okay, that's all for my post today!!

Hope you enjoyed it!!

Have a lovely day!!

<3

~*Kaeli YouJae*~

I'll wait for him

Are you willing to wait for someone that you have strong feelings for?

I have really strong feelings towards this guy, ever since I saw him I knew that I had feelings for him. I thought it was just a tiny little crush but, it turned out to be more than that. Although, he had told me that he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. He really is an honest and amazing person, I had never found that in any guy I had previously met and dated. He's different, and he gives me these feelings that I can never explain.

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Recently, I had met him for the second time at a friend's surprise birthday party. I really tried to keep my distance from him because there were so many other people around. I also didn't want to come off as clingy. I couldn't help my feelings towards him though. My feelings for him are just so strong, being away from him even for a few minutes kills me. 

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I had to sooner or later ask him for an embrace. Once we did, without thinking before my actions, I told him that I missed him. Even knowing that it was way too soon and he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. His response to the I miss you was an "Uh huh." I felt so damn stupid and humiliated. 

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The embrace of course, lasted a while. I couldn't help myself. It's so crazy how someone who was  once a complete stranger can mean so much to you after meeting them. While we were walking to the birthday girl's house to go swimming, I was holding hands with him. His grip was loose and we were uncomfortably silent. He had told me he wanted to talk to me about something.

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I knew exactly what he was going to say to me, but I kept on holding on to him. Of course, he tells me that he wasn't ready for a relationship and that nothing was going to make him change his mind. I was a little hurt but, who wouldn't be? I understood him though, and the fact that he told me face-to-face and being nothing but honest, I had to respect his decision. He then, let go of my hand and I just kept a smile to show him that I wasn't hurt.

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I like/love this guy so much that I will respect his decisions. I will take my time and wait until he's ready. Even though, there's this thing sticking in the back of my mind. "What if I'm waiting for absolutely nothing?" It makes me sad to know that may be the truth. "What if I'm wasting my time waiting for him but, he decides to move on?" 

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Those things somehow seem to subside after I remind myself of what my best friend/brother had told me about his best friend (which is the guy I like). He had said that they are not the type of guys to mess around with girl's feelings. They are the type of guys who would go out of their way to make people they care about happy. They aren't the type of guys who would want to treat a girl badly. He even told me that his best friend is the kind of person who just needs time.

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I can completely understand that, once in a while people just need time to do things that benefit them. Also, the guy I like even came forward and told me that all of those sweet and intimate things we did together was done so that I wouldn't be disappointed. So, was it done just to satisfy me? Was all of those things just a lie? Or did he really have an interest for me or what? 

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I'm not upset that it came to that. I just really want to know if his feelings were really there or if it was just an act to make me happy. I really hope that it wasn't just an act. I just really wish he knew how I felt about everything. How I felt when I was around him, how I felt when he held my hand, and how I felt when he kissed me. I just wish he knew that I may be clingy but, it's because I like to show affection. 

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He really gives me these feelings that I have never had before about anyone. I had never been sitting alone and had pictures of him flashing through my mind. I had never looked at a picture of a person and automatically smiled and giggled. When I see him my heart races and I can't help but smile. I honestly wish that he was mine.

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In my eyes, he is pure perfection. He is everything that I'm missing. He's my missing puzzle piece. I feel that he's my other side or my other pair. He completes me and I'm happy that he was brought into my life.

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Therefore, I will give him time, as long as he needs. I will wait for him because I really truly do not want anyone else. He means that much to me, I had never felt this way about anyone. I really wonder if he has ever thought of me once or had some feelings towards me. He is that special to me that I had chosen him over my sleep and even my thoughts at times.

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I will wait for him....

Wait for you by Elliot Yamin

I hope you enjoyed this lengthy post. 

Have a great and lively day!!