My missing piece

Recently, I have been feeling as if I have found my missing puzzle piece. I have been thinking about how much this person has in common with me. It's actually quite scary how much we have in common, whether it be actions or intellect. It is also all natural for the both of us to do what we do. To me, he is so perfect, there is nothing that I don't like about him, I love everything about him.

Although, I haven't met him yet, I feel as though I have known him for a long time. I feel as if I have met him before or something along those lines. Every time I see him I just have to smile, he makes me so happy. He may make me happy at times but, he also brings tears to my eyes. I'm afraid that someone is going to take him away.

I want to be his, I want to be his everything. I had a sudden attraction to him and it came from absolutely nowhere. I never thought I would be this attracted to someone or have these feelings towards someone. It just took one look and for me to say, "Hey, that guy is quite attractive." Then, all of these feelings came from there and they have grown stronger ever since.

He is literally the other side to me, the other half, and my missing piece. Just watching him from afar and seeing all of the little things he does, I fall in love repeatedly. I even find the odd things he does to be attractive, meaning: things that you usually wouldn't find cute. I don't know if this is creepy or not, but, I love watching him eat. Like I had said earlier, I love everything about him, even the small things.

I honestly would do anything for him, he makes me feel so encouraged and supported. Lately, I have been pushing myself to do very well in school for him. I have been pushing myself to the point where my brain feels like it's going to explode. I always tell myself though that this is for him. He makes me feel good about myself, and he makes me feel that whatever I put my mind to I can do it.

He inspires me each and everyday. Seeing him do his best all the time, makes me want to do the same. There are just countless and admirable things about him that I just can't describe. I would like to say that he has made me a better person. He has also taught me to look at the world at a different perspective. 

I learn something new from him almost every day. He makes me look forward to each day, whether it be bad or good. He just makes me feel so alive, so alive that I'm just happy to be living and breathing each and every day. Knowing that I can see his smiling face every day makes my life worth it. He gives me that extra push to keep on moving forward.

Whenever I think of him or look at him I get those butterflies and my heart beats a little faster. I can't help the way I feel about him, it's quite hard to tell if this is an "infatuation" or "love". If I were with him, I wouldn't mind being away from him for a little bit, everyone needs their space. Just knowing that he is alive and happy, that's all that I need. I feel that he is pure perfection to me, maybe a prince charming. ^^

I can't wait until the day I get to finally meet him. That would be the day that I get to find out if it was meant to be or not. I am totally prepared for what may come of the answer. Only time will tell, I just believe that I have to have faith and hope that this may work. No one knows what will happen, I just have to keep my head up and wait for that day. 

I just know that this guy makes me feel like no other could. He is everything that I ever imagined in a guy, he is just too perfect to me. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. Every little thing reminds me or makes me think of him. I believe in fate, I just hope that this is right. 

I don't want anyone else but him, I know that sounds so cliche but that's how I feel. He has become a part of me, I can't go a day without thinking of him. Most of the time my mind just wanders off to him anyways. These are all natural feelings and I just can't describe fully of how he makes me feel. I can't describe fully of how I feel about him. 

He is just my missing piece, he is special, and he has stolen my heart and is running away with it. I just wish he knew that he meant this much to me. Everyday that goes by, my feelings grow stronger and stronger. Every time I see him, my heart beats faster and faster. I just want him to know that he is always on my mind and in my heart.

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chuu!!~~~ <3

Okay, that's all for my post today!!

Hope you enjoyed it!!

Have a lovely day!!

<3

~*Kaeli YouJae*~

I'll wait for him

Are you willing to wait for someone that you have strong feelings for?

I have really strong feelings towards this guy, ever since I saw him I knew that I had feelings for him. I thought it was just a tiny little crush but, it turned out to be more than that. Although, he had told me that he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. He really is an honest and amazing person, I had never found that in any guy I had previously met and dated. He's different, and he gives me these feelings that I can never explain.

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Recently, I had met him for the second time at a friend's surprise birthday party. I really tried to keep my distance from him because there were so many other people around. I also didn't want to come off as clingy. I couldn't help my feelings towards him though. My feelings for him are just so strong, being away from him even for a few minutes kills me. 

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I had to sooner or later ask him for an embrace. Once we did, without thinking before my actions, I told him that I missed him. Even knowing that it was way too soon and he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. His response to the I miss you was an "Uh huh." I felt so damn stupid and humiliated. 

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The embrace of course, lasted a while. I couldn't help myself. It's so crazy how someone who was  once a complete stranger can mean so much to you after meeting them. While we were walking to the birthday girl's house to go swimming, I was holding hands with him. His grip was loose and we were uncomfortably silent. He had told me he wanted to talk to me about something.

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I knew exactly what he was going to say to me, but I kept on holding on to him. Of course, he tells me that he wasn't ready for a relationship and that nothing was going to make him change his mind. I was a little hurt but, who wouldn't be? I understood him though, and the fact that he told me face-to-face and being nothing but honest, I had to respect his decision. He then, let go of my hand and I just kept a smile to show him that I wasn't hurt.

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I like/love this guy so much that I will respect his decisions. I will take my time and wait until he's ready. Even though, there's this thing sticking in the back of my mind. "What if I'm waiting for absolutely nothing?" It makes me sad to know that may be the truth. "What if I'm wasting my time waiting for him but, he decides to move on?" 

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Those things somehow seem to subside after I remind myself of what my best friend/brother had told me about his best friend (which is the guy I like). He had said that they are not the type of guys to mess around with girl's feelings. They are the type of guys who would go out of their way to make people they care about happy. They aren't the type of guys who would want to treat a girl badly. He even told me that his best friend is the kind of person who just needs time.

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I can completely understand that, once in a while people just need time to do things that benefit them. Also, the guy I like even came forward and told me that all of those sweet and intimate things we did together was done so that I wouldn't be disappointed. So, was it done just to satisfy me? Was all of those things just a lie? Or did he really have an interest for me or what? 

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I'm not upset that it came to that. I just really want to know if his feelings were really there or if it was just an act to make me happy. I really hope that it wasn't just an act. I just really wish he knew how I felt about everything. How I felt when I was around him, how I felt when he held my hand, and how I felt when he kissed me. I just wish he knew that I may be clingy but, it's because I like to show affection. 

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He really gives me these feelings that I have never had before about anyone. I had never been sitting alone and had pictures of him flashing through my mind. I had never looked at a picture of a person and automatically smiled and giggled. When I see him my heart races and I can't help but smile. I honestly wish that he was mine.

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In my eyes, he is pure perfection. He is everything that I'm missing. He's my missing puzzle piece. I feel that he's my other side or my other pair. He completes me and I'm happy that he was brought into my life.

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Therefore, I will give him time, as long as he needs. I will wait for him because I really truly do not want anyone else. He means that much to me, I had never felt this way about anyone. I really wonder if he has ever thought of me once or had some feelings towards me. He is that special to me that I had chosen him over my sleep and even my thoughts at times.

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I will wait for him....

Wait for you by Elliot Yamin

I hope you enjoyed this lengthy post. 

Have a great and lively day!!

Song of the month

Don't wake me up by Chris Brown

I chose this song because it's very catchy and I love the whole song. I am also very love struck, so I always get reminded of my crush when I listen to this song. The lyrics are very catchy and so sweet. My crush is always on my mind, I listen to this song all the time. Music really can tell or describe how you're feeling.

The lyrics:

Dearly beloved, if this love only exists in my dreams...don't wake me up. 

Too much light in this window, don't wake me up
Only coffee no sugar, inside my cup
If I wake and you're here still, give me a kiss
I wasn't finished dreaming, about your lips

Don't wake me up, up, up, up up, up 
Don't wake me up
Don't wake me..

Don't wake me up 
Don't wake me up, up, up, up, up, up
Don't wake me up
Don't wake me..

So much life in the city, you won't believe
Been awake for some days now, no time to sleep
If your heart is a pillow, this love's the bed
Tell me what is the music, inside my head


I don't wanna fall, fall, fall, fall asleep no,
I don't wanna fall unless I'm falling for you

I am just so love struck...that's all I can say.

I really do feel that love is in the air, a lot of people I know are finding their "mates" or "partners" per say. I am so happy for them and even myself for finding a guy I am so fond of. Love really is a wonderful thing and I feel that it should never be taken for granted. I also have to say that everything should happen naturally. <3

Okay, well that's enough of my love rambling once AGAIN. That is it for the song of the month. I do recommend you listen to it if you're interested.

Have a sweet loving, heart racing day!!~ <3

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Love at first sight

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I apologize for all of the recent posts about love. I guess I'm just "love struck". I really don't know how to describe how I feel at this point. I actually thought I would never feel this way again. I told myself that I would stay away from this thing called "love" and the feelings that come along with it. 

Recently, I went on a double date and it was my first time meeting this guy. I had a crush on him for quite some time. What I did not know, was that we would be going over to his house. Once we got to his house I wasn't nervous or anything, I just knew I was going to meet him. Once he answered the door and I saw him, my heart just seemed to jump or "skip a beat". 

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The only thing I could think of doing was smile like an idiot. It wasn't the way he looked or the way he smiled back at me, it was something more. Or at least that's what I felt, or would like to think. Now, usually when I meet new people I shake their hand but, with him, without thinking I ended up hugging him. This was also the first time that the person actually hugged me back.

Also, opening up to him was so much easier than I thought. We actually have a lot of interests in common and we had a lot to talk about. The whole day I was laughing and smiling, he made me feel so happy. There was never a dull moment with him, he is also a gentleman. There is just something about this guy that had me hooked from the very beginning.

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I find myself thinking about him a lot, my heart races. I don't want to rush through this, but I don't know how to handle it. I don't even know if it's just an infatuation or love. I definitely felt those "sparks" that people and the movies talk about. He is really different from other guys I have been around.

I also know that he's not ready to be in a serious relationship yet. So, I actually told myself that I would wait for him. He is just that special to me, I even choose him over my sleep. I just can't explain these feelings, I also don't want these feelings to go away. If these feelings are wrong, I would just hate myself so much.

I often go for the "wrong guys", but I don't want him to be that. I also fall very fast and I always end up getting hurt. I have to admit, I am that clinging type, but not desperate. I just want affection and to give affection. He is the only one who actually accepted my affection and given it back.

He is perfection in my eyes.

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I will wait for him.

Alright, I guess that's going to be enough of my love rambling. 

Hope you all enjoyed reading this, if not, that's fine too.

Have a great day!!~

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Love Pt. 2

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On Saturday, I went out with my best friend, his girlfriend and his best friend (my date). It was the best day ever, since I have been cooped up inside the house for a long time. It was a double date and I enjoyed every second of it. :3 <3 The day was filled with laughter and love. There are no words to explain how happy I truly am. <3

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I honestly have to say that I believe in this thing called "love at first sight". This was my first time meeting my best friend's best friend (if that makes sense). When I laid eyes on him, I couldn't help but smile and feel my face light up. Usually when I meet new people I would shake hands with them. This time I automatically hugged him without even thinking. 

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It was so easy to talk to him, most of the time when I meet new people I would be extremely shy. With him, I felt so comfortable and confident. We talked about anything and everything, we were laughing most of the time. It feels good to get to know someone new. Also, someone I can share interests with and relate to. 

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I know it seems that I have fallen very quickly for this guy. I just felt an instant attraction to him, it all came naturally. In my eyes, he is pure perfection, I would do anything to make him happy. For example, if he was not ready for a serious relationship I would wait for him. I have very strong feelings for him, I really don't care what others think.

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I really like this guy, I just hope that it will work out in the end. I just can't seem to get him out of my head. Every time I close my eyes I see him and remember everything that happened between us. I just keep smiling and then I start to giggle. I have become that happy little girl that I had remembered being.

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I'll admit, I do fall quite fast for people....but, I had never felt this way about anyone. I'm love struck and got an arrow shot into me by Cupid. I am just so happy right now and I can't hide it. I can't even sleep because he's all I can think about. He really left me with a racing heart and stars in my eyes. lol 

Definitely felt those sparks with him.

I'm sprung.

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Have a wonderful and fun loving day!!~