Song of the month

This month's song is...

"The heart wants what it wants" by Selena Gomez

Music video: 

http://youtu.be/ij_0p_6qTss

The reason why I chose this song for this month is because I can totally relate to the lyrics. I can even relate to Selena. This song really reached me deep inside and made me understand my own feelings. The lyrics are beautiful and so is Selena's voice. This song just touches my heart. I love it. :)

The lyrics: 

You got me sippin' on something

I can't compare to nothing

I've ever known, I'm hoping

That after this fever I'll survive

I know I'm acting a bit crazy

Strung out, a little bit hazy

Hand over heart, I'm praying

That I'm gonna make it out alive

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants

You got me scattered in pieces

Shining like stars and screaming

Lighting me up like Venus

But then you disappear and make me wait

And every second's like torture

Hell over trip, no more so

Finding a way to let go

Baby, baby, no I can't escape

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants [3x]

This is a modern fairytale

No happy endings

No wind in our sails

But I can't imagine a life without

Breathless moments

Breaking me down, down, down, down

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants [3x]

The heart wants what it wants, baby

It wants what it wants, baby

It wants what it wants [2x]

Credit to: AZLyrics.com

There you go! That's the song of the month! I hope you take a listen to it if you haven't already. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do! I hope you all have a great day or night everyone! :)

Shipping KaeJae

KaeJae

Recently, or should I say last night, a girl had commented on one of my pictures on Instagram and she said, "My sister and I ship you with Youngjae ^.^". My reaction to this was a big smile and covering my face with my hands. That had made my night and made me feel so happy. So many people have told me this, and it makes me feel so happy and bashful for some reason. She had also said, "Lol you're so welcome ^.^ you guys would be so perfff OuO". Aiiiggggooooo~~~ <3 This person had just made my day and all of my friends and others who have told me the same thing. I honestly never thought that I looked good with him but, I guess I'm growing into it. If that makes sense. ^^;;

I was so happy after hearing what that girl had said that I even started coming up with shipping names. ^^ The first ones were based off of a nickname I had given to myself and Youngjae's fandom. I'm a "Milkshake" and he's a "Brainbox", therefore I came up with: Milkbox and my friend came up with Brainshake. The other two were just based off of our names put together like the regular shipping names. I came up with "KaeJae" and "JaeKae". I let my friends look through them and one of them said that they really liked KaeJae. So, there we have it! KaeJae is the shipping name!!! Woo hoo~~~!!!! Fighting~~!!!

Omo ~ I honestly made these shipping pictures just for fun. I didn't think I looked good next to him so I never posted these anywhere until now. So, I guess now the whole world will be able to see them. I don't care what anyone says, I'm happy and that's all that matters to me. I hope you enjoy some of these KaeJae pictures!! ^^

Credit to my dongsaeng Mina Choi

Kaeli and YoungJae

KaeJae

I guess I can now say that I ship myself with Yoo YoungJae <3

I ship...

KaeJae <3

Thoughts over sleep

Have you ever had those nights where you can't sleep because your brain is on overdrive? I have one too many of these nights and it really ruins my sleeping pattern. Sometimes I wish my mind would just take a chill pill and let me be. I was so ready to sleep tonight, eyes closed and everything...then, the brain starts going. I can't sleep because my mind was playing out different scenarios.

The scenarios seem so realistic in my mind and I wish one day they will become a reality. Hard thing is, most of these scenarios seem too good to be true. It's mostly day dreaming or fantasizing, and majority of the time it puts me down. On the nights that I have to deal with these thoughts I listen to music to hopefully fall asleep. "Nope! Not tonight!" says my brain that just can't seem to find a way to stop.

I really do find it quite unrealistic how just one person can take over your mind so much. I was playing out scenarios of what it would be like to meet him. I was wondering what it would be like to look into his eyes and not being afraid to say anything. Then, knowing my mind, puts in a negative...finally meeting him and feeling that he won't like me and I just walk away. That's reality I guess, there are always going to be ups and downs no matter what.

This statement could be true...I really do hope it is to some extent. Although, it's hard to believe it because a lot of people have mixed up sleeping patterns and/or insomnia. Also, time difference can be a big factor as to why this can't be true. Anyway, it would be nice to know that that special someone is out there. That special someone is probably thinking the same things too.

Well, that's a bit of a ramble/rant wasn't it? Especially for a 3 am post all while I'm drinking cranberry juice. This was a short post, since I need to try and sleep. I hope all of you can sleep peacefully, I wouldn't like to see others go through this. Have a good night's sleep or a good morning. 

The song I am listening to while trying to fall asleep is:

My Awake by Late Night Alumni

 

~*Kaeli YouJae*~

~*Good night or good morning*~

My missing piece

Recently, I have been feeling as if I have found my missing puzzle piece. I have been thinking about how much this person has in common with me. It's actually quite scary how much we have in common, whether it be actions or intellect. It is also all natural for the both of us to do what we do. To me, he is so perfect, there is nothing that I don't like about him, I love everything about him.

Although, I haven't met him yet, I feel as though I have known him for a long time. I feel as if I have met him before or something along those lines. Every time I see him I just have to smile, he makes me so happy. He may make me happy at times but, he also brings tears to my eyes. I'm afraid that someone is going to take him away.

I want to be his, I want to be his everything. I had a sudden attraction to him and it came from absolutely nowhere. I never thought I would be this attracted to someone or have these feelings towards someone. It just took one look and for me to say, "Hey, that guy is quite attractive." Then, all of these feelings came from there and they have grown stronger ever since.

He is literally the other side to me, the other half, and my missing piece. Just watching him from afar and seeing all of the little things he does, I fall in love repeatedly. I even find the odd things he does to be attractive, meaning: things that you usually wouldn't find cute. I don't know if this is creepy or not, but, I love watching him eat. Like I had said earlier, I love everything about him, even the small things.

I honestly would do anything for him, he makes me feel so encouraged and supported. Lately, I have been pushing myself to do very well in school for him. I have been pushing myself to the point where my brain feels like it's going to explode. I always tell myself though that this is for him. He makes me feel good about myself, and he makes me feel that whatever I put my mind to I can do it.

He inspires me each and everyday. Seeing him do his best all the time, makes me want to do the same. There are just countless and admirable things about him that I just can't describe. I would like to say that he has made me a better person. He has also taught me to look at the world at a different perspective. 

I learn something new from him almost every day. He makes me look forward to each day, whether it be bad or good. He just makes me feel so alive, so alive that I'm just happy to be living and breathing each and every day. Knowing that I can see his smiling face every day makes my life worth it. He gives me that extra push to keep on moving forward.

Whenever I think of him or look at him I get those butterflies and my heart beats a little faster. I can't help the way I feel about him, it's quite hard to tell if this is an "infatuation" or "love". If I were with him, I wouldn't mind being away from him for a little bit, everyone needs their space. Just knowing that he is alive and happy, that's all that I need. I feel that he is pure perfection to me, maybe a prince charming. ^^

I can't wait until the day I get to finally meet him. That would be the day that I get to find out if it was meant to be or not. I am totally prepared for what may come of the answer. Only time will tell, I just believe that I have to have faith and hope that this may work. No one knows what will happen, I just have to keep my head up and wait for that day. 

I just know that this guy makes me feel like no other could. He is everything that I ever imagined in a guy, he is just too perfect to me. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. Every little thing reminds me or makes me think of him. I believe in fate, I just hope that this is right. 

I don't want anyone else but him, I know that sounds so cliche but that's how I feel. He has become a part of me, I can't go a day without thinking of him. Most of the time my mind just wanders off to him anyways. These are all natural feelings and I just can't describe fully of how he makes me feel. I can't describe fully of how I feel about him. 

He is just my missing piece, he is special, and he has stolen my heart and is running away with it. I just wish he knew that he meant this much to me. Everyday that goes by, my feelings grow stronger and stronger. Every time I see him, my heart beats faster and faster. I just want him to know that he is always on my mind and in my heart.

<3

chuu!!~~~ <3

Okay, that's all for my post today!!

Hope you enjoyed it!!

Have a lovely day!!

<3

~*Kaeli YouJae*~

My older sister Jaehwa

Today I would like to talk about my "older sister" Jaehwa. To be honest, she actually isn't older than me but, she sure acts like it. Ever since I met her I knew right away that we would get along. I knew that she would be as sweet, loving and caring as she is. She is also a great leader, I am inspired by her and I look up to her. 

She is one of these recent friends that I have made and become very close to in such little time. She is already family to me and there's nothing I wouldn't do for her. She also has this "mother-like" trait to her, she wants to take care of us. The way I had been introduced to her was very awesome. There was just something so perfect about it and I liked it a lot.

The way that I was introduced to her, was by my little sister Mina! They have been friends long before I came into the picture. They are two peas in a far out pod and they both make me so happy. I am happy to have both of them in my life. I am so glad that we all became so close and became a family. 

Back to Jaehwa, there are so many qualities about her that just lighten up the mood. She literally is always happy every time I talk to her or video chat with her. There is never a time that I don't see her smiling or laughing. She also has this soft spoken, gentle yet, strong voice to her. I love that I can talk to her about anything and she doesn't judge me.

I feel that I can go to her for anything and she'll be ready to listen and give me advice. She is also a very talented poet, well...so I have heard from Mina. I find that very awesome though because for myself, I find it quite hard to write poems. From my perspective, I think you need a lot of skill and imagination to write poems. I know that she definitely has those things. 

I really do look up to her for her great imagination and leader skills. She inspires me to try my hardest at things and to always keep my head up. She even inspires me to be myself 150% of the time. She helps bring the funny, weirdo and giggly side out of me. She really is the best unnie I could ever ask for in our little family. 

There is no such thing as judgement when we are together. We forget about everything and just live for the moment. Life is too short to be worrying, let's just have fun. We are never alone because we will always have one another. Does she have a heart of gold, I think so.

Unnie, when we are together let's just drop everything and just go crazy.

I promise that I will always be by your side through whatever.

Let us work together to solve problems.

When you, me and Mina actually meet let's promise to make unforgettable memories together.

Unnie, you are silly...

Cool as a cucumber...

ALWAYS shining those pearly whites...

Creative and ambitious...

Most of all....

You are a blessing to your little B.A.P family.

Saranghaeyo!!~~~ Jaehwa <3

Let us take care of one another.

Much love xoxo

Kaeli YouJae

Song of the month

This month's song is....

Hurricane by B.A.P!!!!

The MV was actually just released today at 12pm KST but in Las Vegas was 8pm.

Yes, I said Las Vegas because I live here. Sad thing is, I didn't know that they were even here filming their MV. That makes me sad because I honestly could have seen them. Anyways, I am just happy to know that they were here and I could go and walk around the same areas. I can go to any of those places anytime and just smile, knowing they were there.

I chose this song as "Song of the month" because I love B.A.P!!! I also love that they really live up to their name. Each and every one of their songs is amazing. Also, each and every member has their own talent and they work so well together. Lastly, because I heard Himchan say, "The LOOF is on FIYA." 

Handsome DaeDae

My one and only spiffy bias YoungJae

The ever so talented LTE rapper and dancer baby Zelo

The man behind "The LOOF is on FIYA" Himchan 

 Yongguk shouting out cities

The definition of SWAG...Jongup

Here are the lyrics to Hurricane.

Yeah B.A.P Let’s Go

Ready to fly, You and I

Everyone up and down

Scream out loud, go crazy, roller coaster ride

Hold your hands up in the air, you know? How we go

We gotta break it down, break it down

feelin’ good tonight

A dazzling shining star

(I wanna baby I wanna baby)

Boys that go around the world, up in the sky

Holding and releasing the world in our hands, shall we shake it up?

We hurricane we hurricane

we hurricane hurricane 

I’m a hurricane

Radio, TV, News, wherever it is, everyone’s watching over

(Spread like a lethal virus)

Asia, US, Korea, Euro, South America

(A loud cheering is heard in the night)

The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire

The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire

Seoul, Tokyo n New York City

Beijing, Hong Kong, Berlin

I guess, I gotta feeling

The place that calls me is the killer stage

Keep that modest behavior aight?

The growing spectrum I say ‘La la la la la’ (Yolo!)

The road that we’re going on right now is

the rhythm that K-pop is newly going on

We’re real, we know how to play around

We ride the frogs in a well and fly

From traditional Korean music to rock and black soul

We absorb it all, we’re awake

A spectrum that grows immensely, we say

Holding and releasing the world in our hands, shall we shake it up?

We hurricane we hurricane

we hurricane hurricane 

I’m a hurricane

Radio, TV, News, wherever it is, everyone’s watching over

(Spread like a lethal virus)

Asia, US, Korea, Euro, South America

(A loud cheering is heard in the night)

The world is mine, till we both shine

Turn It Up Now, Burn It Up Now

Grab The Mic & Shout Out To You Now

Turn It Up Now, Burn It Up Now

Grab The Mic & Shout Out To You!

We’re Hurricane, We’re Hurricane

We’re Hurricane, Hurricane

I’m A Hurricane, We’re Hurricane

I hope you enjoyed this month's song!!!

Let your day be like a roller coaster ride!!

<3