Crazy thing

Something crazy recently happened that I thought would never happen between my best friend/little sister and I. It came to the point where I began to believe that we had drifted apart and I didn't want to be her friend anymore. Then, as we kept on talking, we started seeing how great of a friendship we have. She also brought up all of the amazing memories we created together and how much she had opened up to me. She mentioned how many things she had done with me than with anyone else she knows, even those who she sees in person. It hit me, she really is a little sister to me and my best friend, why would I be crazy to throw that away? I felt so stupid at that point, and even make her cry like I had a few times in the past. I feel like a bad friend and a jerk for doing that to her. It's crazy how we forgive one another and still want to be crazy siblings together. ^^ I guess we are best friends!

Here's the crazy conclusion we came to, the thing that was really causing us distress, tears, and even the thought of ending our friendship was because of this man. Ruki of the GazettE, he literally came between us because we both liked him or even love or "loved" him. It was something that we both never wanted to happen to the both of us, but it did. Just over a guy? I know, it sounds stupid but, it does make sense to a certain extent. Well, since my best friend still loves him I had told her to admire and love him away from me and my sight. I don't like him because he came between my best friend and I and I never want to fight with her or make her feel sad ever again. Now, I know that I will always choose my friends over some guy because friendships are so much more important than fangirling over a celebrity. 

I guess I had learned something new!

We make mistakes and we learn from them, that way we don't repeat these mistakes in the future. 

We can only get stronger from these things that happen to us.

Well, this was a very short post today, but I just wanted to share with you my discovery and hope it helps you if you are or have been through this. It's always nice to be able to relate to others, because in reality no one wants to be the only one. 

Have a great night!

31 day blog challenge Day 23

Day 23 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 23: Do you have a hobby?

Yes, I do. My hobbies are:

1. Taking photos

2. Reading

3. Drawing

4. Listening to music

5. Dancing

6. Singing

7. Talking/texting

8. Watching TV

9. Sleeping

10. Shopping

11. Modeling

12. Spending time with family and friends

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!!

31 day blog challenge Day 22

Day 22 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 22: What do you do when you're home alone?

Well, this question is very creeper-like and stalkerish.

I'm not sure if I should answer this challenge or not.

I'm actually quite terrified to answer this.

I honestly don't think you need to know what I do.

I will just answer this vaguely, I am at home doing stuff.

I feel really uncomfortable answering this question for some reason.

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!!

31 day blog challenge Day 21

Day 21 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 21: What's your biggest fear?

My biggest fears are:

1. Sharks

2. Spiders

3. Balloons (I have globophobia)

4. Someone taking away someone I have deep feelings for

5. not graduating from school

6. Dying a slow painful death

7. clowns

8. Haunted houses

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!!

31 day blog challenge Day 20

Day 20 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 20: What do you collect?

Things that I collect:

1. Shoes

2. Stuffed animals

3. B.A.P/Yoo YoungJae things

That's it for today's challenge!!

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31 day blog challenge Day 18

Day 18 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 18: Where are you happiest?

The place that I am the happiest is in my room. It's a place where I can be myself and no one will judge me. Don't get me wrong, I do love to go out with family and friends, but I am for sure, the happiest in my room. I guess that I feel this way because I'm home all of the time due to online school. I am home cleaning the house, doing laundry, doing school work and so, I am just always in my room. :)

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!!

31 day blog challenge Day 17

Day 17 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 17: Why and when did you start blogging?

I wanted to start blogging because I thought it would be quite fun to share my thoughts, feelings, and interests with others.

I began blogging on August of last year, I decided to make this blog on my birthday.

I'm very sorry for this really really short post today. I apologize because I am busy with school and I'm becoming quite stressed. 

That's it for today's challenge!!

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31 day blog challenge Day 13

Day 13 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 13: Do you have regret?

Yes, I do. The things that I regret the most is being dishonest and hurting people close to me. I have been dishonest until I caused a problem for my cousin and I and our relationship. That's when I had decided to change that about myself. One thing I have been trying to avoid but it seems impossible, is hurting those close to me. It's as if I am constantly pushing them away. This is one thing that I hate about myself and I wish I could change it. Dishonesty and hurting people that are close to me, those are the things that I regret the most.

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!!

31 day blog challenge Day 12

Day 12 of the 31 day blog challenge

Day 12: Something that you miss

Things that I miss:

1. I miss seeing both of my parents

2. I miss spending time with my parents

3. I miss my step family

4. I miss my step siblings

5. I miss watching my dad play car games

6. I miss going to the mall or nail salon with my mum

7. I miss my stuffed animals I left with my step sister

8. I miss my Gazefamily

9. I miss spending the night over my cousin's house

10. I miss the snow in Canada

11. I miss my long hip length hair

12. I miss Disneyland and Disney World

That's it for today's challenge!!

I hope you stick around until the end!!

Have an amazing day!!

No turning back/changing

Today I would like to talk about the feelings and thoughts that I've been having lately. Ever since I have decided to depart from a group I had created I had been feeling like an open wound. Fresh, open, and vulnerable. I have been over thinking, hurting myself with these thoughts, and noticing a change in myself and others as well. I feel that I am losing those who once meant a lot to me.

Right now, nothing, absolutely nothing makes sense to me.

Blessed with a curse by Bring me the Horizon

I am actually at the point right now where I want to begin to keep a distance. A distance from those who were close, those who caused or cause me pain and those who choose to forget me. I think that at this point, I just need time to myself. No more conversing about fantasies and no more making acquaintances with those who converse about fantasies. I am just so confused and thrown into a whirlwind.

I guess that me distancing myself from everyone will be a good thing. It gives me time to myself and more time for those people to find new things. I have noticed that over these past years, a lot of peoples' lives have become better without me in it. Sometimes, I think that I was just made to be alone majority of the time. I feel that I am a burden to those who have become close to me.

I also feel that once we get close to the fire we get burnt. After getting burnt, we never want to go near it again. Yet, that experience and feeling of getting burnt gets engraved in our minds. Although, there's nothing to change about what happened because it left a scar. Sooner or later it will heal and we will learn new things from that past experience.

What I'm trying to say is that I'm prepared to face these changes in my life. I am ready to move on, and ready to grow up. I am ready to forget all of this and become a better me. It may not be beneficial to those around me but, if it benefits me I'm fine with that. I am ready to face reality and find something new to chase after.

In life, there will always be ups and downs, there is absolutely no way to avoid it. You make mistakes but you learn from them. These challenges and changes in our lives can only make us that much stronger. I am still learning, but I am also willing to put up with mine and other consequences. I have also learned that now, I am practically an adult and I need to take full responsibility for whatever happens.

There will be no more blaming on others.

I am definitely feeling way better after babbling this. I feel like a "brand new" me! Yes, change feels good right now. It feels good to do things for myself once in a while. This is a big step for me, I do feel very mature at the moment. haha! I am a girl slowly turning into a young lady.

I will like to end this somehow, on a positive note. To those who caused me pain, thank you, you have made me that much stronger and mature. To those who became close to me, thank you for letting me be myself and learning to trust people. To those who have chosen to forget me, thank you for giving me memories. To those who want to cause me pain, I don't care what you do, life is life, it's gonna suck sometimes but, I won't let you get to me. 

We all have to learn to deal with whatever life throws at us.

POWER by B.A.P

Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed it!! I'm very sorry if this post does not make a lot of sense. I was just going with whatever my mind was telling me.I apologize for it not being to your liking. 

Good night world!!!