October blog challenge Day 7

7 lessons I have learned so far this year

1. My first lesson that I have learned is that you really can't trust anyone. That definitely includes family. I say this because I have had so many encounters where these people whom you have taken the time to open up to only use what you say against you. I don't know why they do so, maybe because they are bored, envious,...etc. whatever it may be. Point is, people are the real monsters and can turn on you in a blink of an eye.

2. My second lesson would have to be to not gossip, it just gets you into drama and trouble. With gossiping, it makes you look stupid and just a downright nosy person. It just makes you look bad and even makes you feel bad, I did it and I felt like a piece of shit. I ended up disrespecting good people who care about me. In the end, I learned that you need to treat others the way you'd like to be treated.

3. My third lesson is learning to save money because there will always be a time where you're going to need it to come and save the day. I, personally have been and am really bad at saving. When it comes to money I don't like when people tell me when and how to spend my money. But, it has helped me so far with saving money and I really like seeing money still in my pocket. I seriously have to thank my boyfriend for pushing me to save my money.

4. The fourth lesson I learned is to worry about myself, because when you get yourself tangled up in someone else's business it messes you up. When I was so worried about what the people who have done me wrong in the past were doing, it consumed so much of my time and effort that I could be spending on something else. I mean, I'm still learning to ignore everyone else's business but it's also hard when you live with other people. Once I start to worry about myself I start striving to better for myself and my life. I feel as if nothing can really tear me down. 

5. The fifth lesson I learned is that once you start living with someone and you spend everyday with them you start noticing the things you like and dislike about them. For instance, things that I didn't know about my boyfriend and his mother start showing. My boyfriend starts showing different habits and so does his mother. You get to learn more about people by observing their actions. Overall, everyone is human and we just have to learn to deal with one another or get along.

6. The sixth lesson I learned is that you shouldn't have super clean hair. I only say this because I use to wash my hair ALL THE TIME!! Guess what ended up happening? I got head lice, I learned that it's okay to wash your hair twice a week. I did all of the necessary remedies to get rid of it and now I'm fine. 

7. The seventh lesson I learned is that things that occur in our lives always happen for a reason. We may not know the reason but want to. A lot of events up until now have happened and most of them all have a good reason for happening. It taught me some really good life lessons and I grew from them. Everything that has happened to me make me a better person and it makes me so thankful for the life I have.

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See you all soon in my upcoming posts!!

Disappointment

Recently, I had received a message from my home school counselor and found out that I was withdrawn from it. I was horrified when I heard the news, then again, I honestly blame the school because they had changed everything around this year. Nothing was easy this year as it was the last. I am actually very disappointed in that, but I'm also very disappointed in myself. Why? You might ask. Well, because I wasn't able to push myself as much as I expected from myself. I feel as though I had let down myself and my whole family. Feeling like you've let yourself down is the worst because it's yourself who knows yourself better than anyone. 

What really frustrates me though, is that no one really wants to try and put themselves in my shoes to understand why I did what I did. They don't want to know how some things are difficult for me to process, and why it might have come to this. Everyone is expected so much from me so I feel really pressured and at most times misunderstood. I honestly am "the runt" or "the black sheep" out of the kids in my family. All of the kids that are older than me have graduated and are on their own, living their lives. The younger ones are even doing better than me. Then there's me, the one who doesn't know what to do, where I'm going in life, how I'm going to get places and it's just a giant mess. It makes me have so much anxiety just thinking about it. Sometimes I even think that I may be a dead beat or something like that or near it.

Then again, my optimism, faith and hope comes in to save me a little bit. I always know that there are ways to get through this and also that there are always going to be lessons to learn every day throughout our lives. I am going to learn to get pass this and see what this is going to teach me. This is probably one of those moments where I find someway to overcome this and become a better and stronger person. It's not all about blaming and being disappointed in the end. It's about falling and picking yourself up, brushing yourself off and carrying on forward. There's always going to be a light at the end of the tunnel and as long as you have your faith, hopes and dreams you can make it.

I'm going to get through my disappointment because as long as I know that he has a special path and plan for me, I should carry on with my head held up. I will learn from this obstacle and I will smile as I find the right path and make my way to my goals and dreams. Over all of my past mistakes and disappointments I have learned to be quite cheerful and optimistic and to have faith in things because life is sometimes too short to be down. I always try to please everyone around me because seeing them happy makes me happy. When it comes to making myself happy, it's being with others who are happy. I practically just repeated myself but, I think you will understand in the end. ^^ So, I guess the whole lesson for me here, is that disappointments can turn into your drive and optimism for success. 

Thank you for taking the time to read this post! 

I do hope this inspires you to carry on and have faith!

Keep following your dreams!

Fighting~~!!

Have a great day!

Takanori-chan

Today I will be giving you my little story about this little guy named Takanori. Takanori was a 5 month old long haired chihuahua when I got him. Just a sweet little baby, ever since I saw him I was already attached. He stole my heart, he was so cuddly and well behaved. He even woke me up with kisses, such a sweet and precious boy.

This story starts with me wanting a puppy so badly that I didn't care what others thought about it. I didn't even care what my guardians thought, knowing that they didn't want a dog in the house in the first place. I went on craigslist to find this precious baby and contacted the owner. I told her over and over that I was interested in her puppy. She agreed to let me see her puppies and take one of them home in the same day.

I was indeed, very very selfish at this point. I would stop at nothing to have this dog in my life. I would even risk getting my cousin in trouble and myself. When I got the chance to go out with my cousin, I got a call from the owner about the puppy. She wanted to know when I wanted to see the puppies, my cousin and I decided to go immediately. 

After seeing this little boy, I fell in love with him. I decided to take him home even knowing that it was the wrong thing to do. My cousin and I didn't want to leave the little guy in the car so, we took him into the movie theater with us. After the movies, we went to the pet store to get him a collar and leash. Also, his necessities and we were too scared to bring him home so we took him to the park.

It was night when we went to the park and it was kind of chilly. Takanori was getting cold so we decided to sit in the car. After the park, my cousin decided to drop me off, we were planning on how to sneak him into the house. We finally got everything figured out and I got him inside safely without being noticed. I was extremely happy to have brought home a puppy, but also worried that I would get caught.

I then immediately started taking pictures of this cutie and uploading them to instagram. My older sister had seen them and wanted to come over the next day or so to give me a gift. She also wanted to meet this sweet little baby, I was happy to let her. Once she came over, I told her that my guardians didn't know that I had a dog in the house. She then told me that the best thing to do was to tell them.

I knew what I did was wrong and I felt very guilty because of it. It was eating me up inside, even knowing that I promised my cousin I wouldn't say anything. I promised my cousin that I wouldn't say she had anything to do with it. I still felt that the best thing to do was to speak up, knowing that I would have to face my consequences. So, once my aunt came home, I decided to open up and tell her EVERYTHING.

Of course, me being a sensitive person, I cried. My aunt forgave me for showing humility, but she was very disappointed in me for taking such actions. That is very understandable though, so I understood right then that I would have to fix what I had started. My aunt started by asking and hearing both sides of the story. She heard both and became confused and angry, I didn't feel worthy of anything.

Since my relationship with my cousin began to fall apart, I had to ask my older sister to take Takanori back to his owner. Once my sister had come to retrieve him, I had to hear what her and her girlfriend thought about the situation. They were just confused and angry as my aunt was and that made me feel like sh*t, something even lower than dirt. I knew that I had this coming anyway, but it still hurt a great deal. Then again, I had to face my consequences for my actions.

I had no one else to blame but myself. That was the harsh truth and I knew it. This was one of the things that had taught me a lot. About making mistakes, responsibility, humility and even consequences. I even learned about how people take to certain situations. Most of all, I want to apologize to Takanori, he had already been in a house that had rejected him. 

He was sent back to the owner before I even came to get him. I only had him for a night and a day. Then, he was sent back to the owner again, what was I thinking? Making this poor little dog go back and forth and wondering who his real family is. I am so sorry Takanori for putting you through all of that. 

You made me happy, but knowing that I put you through that I feel like a terrible person. You didn't deserve that, I also didn't deserve you. I was too eager to have a puppy that I didn't think about the consequences. It tore my relationships apart and I had become untrustworthy even to my own family. So, I have learned so much just from getting a puppy, I now know to think twice before doing anything.

You may have thought that this story was going to be all soft and sweet. I apologize if it wasn't something that you were expecting. 

"Expect the unexpected..."

I just wanted to share with you the time that I had learned a lot from my mistakes. Also, knowing right from wrong, knowing when to stop. Knowing when you need to stop and think before you do anything.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. 

I apologize if this was not what you were expecting.

I also hope that you do not make the same mistakes I did.

I hope you enjoyed this. :)

Here are some more photos of Taka-chan.

Please enjoy! :)

I miss this baby boy so very much and I lost him because of my stupid actions. 

It was all my fault. 

:(

:'(

I will never ever make the same mistakes again.

I have learned the hard way.

"Learn from your mistakes..."

Have a wonderful and experimental day!!~ 

:)